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Of
my beautiful little son, Holden Mykel Ramos
March
28, 1991 ~ March 19, 1996
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Even
though it has now been over 8 years since Holden
packed up his bags and went to heaven, I still
miss him so incredibly much. Life has completely
changed over the last 4 years, and I can now say
that I am very happy for the most part, but
there are still some extremely difficult times I
experience that brings the feelings of
overwhelming loss right back to the forefront
of my thinking and makes me feel as if the
death of Holden occurred moments ago and I
have made no progress at all in accepting my
life without the loss of my son. These moments
are not as common as they have been in past
years, and I think they last much shorter of a
duration of time, but this loss still hurts
and time has not made it go completely away. I
think that is such a misconception that
society places on people who have experienced
the death of a child that we feel in time we
have to "get over it" so that we can
fit in with the people in the world who has
not experienced this horrendous loss. My
heart has never let go of my feelings of
extreme loss over Holden, and he is not in my
thoughts any less then he was when he was
alive or when he had first packed his bags for
heaven, but to survive, I stuff the grief to
the deepest part of me and only let it out
when I am safe. It is a private mourning
ritual that I do now. That is how I have
accepted my grief for the rest of my life. I
am indeed happy and I now enjoy life, but I
will ALWAYS miss my beautiful wonderful sweet
little Holden.
In
Memory of Holden, and because of how I have
been taught by him, I am happy to announce ~
Holden's
Hope Foundation
Holden
March
28, 1991 ~ March 19, 1996
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Please
visit Holden's other web sites...
In
Memory of Holden
Holden's
School Scrapbook
Holden's
Cardiac Condition Page
Holden's
celebration of Life Site
Holden's
Virtual Memorial Site
The
Story of Holden Mykel
Cardiac
Kids - Holden Mykel
Dearly
Departed
In
memory of the Children
Holden's
Spreading Smile Quilt page
Angel
Blessings made in memory of Holden by Val
 
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